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Hmmm...had my anthro presentation this morning. Ok so somehow I had gotta volunteered to put our whole project together and print it out. Actually its because I did more work than most of the other people in our group that I got chosen to do even more work...makes sense, doesnt it? Yeah, sure. I actually volunteered to write the abstract for our paper, of which I had to rewrite 3 times...that thing frustrated the crap out of me mostly because Kwarteng kept telling me how wrong everything I wrote was. Then I saw that there was a statement of significance that needed to be written too so I was like I can do that too cause both together would be about 500 words and my section of the paper didnt require much research. My first draft of the abstract ended up being a big part of our introduction too because it was so long. So I ended up writing an extra 2-3 pages (single spaced mind you) than everybody else. Plus my section of the paper was longer than anybody's too. Dont get me wrong, Kat volunteered to research a little more and add to the intro that I had already started, and Laura found pictures for everybody and put them on a power point for us to use (which everybody should have done indivually, but no one except me did). And Heather did make and print off our program. So anyways I was given the task of putting together everybody's individual sections, which really doesnt sound too bad, but it's actually kind of time consuming and annoying. I sent out 2 emails to everybody in my group telling them that I needed everything: their sections, their references, and any changes to the drafts I already had. I was up till around 5 this morning, not doing the project the whole time but studying and then watching "The Last Samauri," but I checked my email right before going to bed and the one piece I was missing was Matt's ENTIRE section of the paper. Plus Kwartang never sent me any of his references. AND I checked my email right before class and held off on printing for as long as I could. Still nothing. So I go early to class to meet my group for a final pow wow (only the girls were there early), and while everybody was coming in for class, Matt gives us his section, printed off in his own format, totally separate from the group's paper. And then Kwarteng tells me he has some changes he wants to make to his section and he also has his references. GRRRRR people can be so rude! Would it really have been that hard to have sent me this stuff in an email?? Even if it was that morning before class, at least we would have handed in a complete project. I talked to the professor, and she said we had to hand what we had in because it was due right then. I dont blame her at all. She understood the position they put me in though, so that makes me feel better. I did alright on my presenting, except she said I just kind of read. Which I knew she would say. I get so nervous speaking in front of people that if I have everything written down, I feel much calmer. So that's what I did. It's alright though, even if I get points taken off, I'm pretty sure I'll still get an A in that class. Plus I found out I could possibly get an A in HIST 132 if I do well on the final. I started studying for it yesterday. The final is on Thursday...I think this is the earliest I've ever started studying for a test haha. I've got a paper due on Friday for HIST 122 which I havent started yet though. I'm definitely nervous about that class. Chances are I'll only get a B on the final, which means I'll be a border C/B overall. I'm such an idiot, it's all my fault too, I've been slacking off all quarter, not going to classes. And I've got a participation grade of C- because I never talk in our discussion sections. That's going to kill my grade. And in HIST 330, I will most likely get a B. There goes my GPA... I'm really going to study hard for these finals though and write 2 killer essays for 122 and 330. Maybe I can salvage something.

Ok so enough venting. I had a very nice weekend. Spent pretty much all my time with John. :) There was NO ONE here, they all went home for memorial day weekend. It was weird. But I had a great time. Actually my weekend started on Thursday. Amy, Emily, Sheila, and I went to Evo. They were having a rapper perform and also a hot body contest. None of us were going to do the contest but some guy pulled Amy over to the DJ booth and she convinced Emily to go up with her haha. I couldnt believe they did it! Some girl took off her shirt and pants on stage. She was wearing a thong! Her butt wasnt even that good looking but all the guys were like YAY! And before I say what I'm going to say next, I dont want to offend anybody or anything but I'm not the only one who has noticed this. I've met quite a few black people here and are friends with some of them. Now not all, but some, are kind of prejudice. Not racist or reverse-racist cause all -isms are based in power which obviously white people have historically had and still continually maintain today regardless of any belief otherwise. I'm the first to admit that. And I realize that here at OU, blacks are VERY much in the minority. But some of the girls seem to never trust you or look down on you just because you're white. They automatically dont trust you before they even know you. Like during the hot body contest, almost every single black girl and most of the black guys voted for a black girl. And then when that girl with the thong (she was white) got into the finals, they were all pissed. She was pretty, there was no denying that but I guess it was the principle that it was in a dance club and only black girls can dance which isnt true. And if any of them see you dancing or getting close to a black guy, they turn on you. White girls are not allowed to date black guys. It's like they think we're stealing their guys. As much as they want to be treated as equals, they separate themselves. They sit at tables all to themselves in the dining halls; they make groups on facebook that diss whites. (Once again, I'd like to say that not everyone does this or anything close to this.) I know I'm not in their positions, I cant image how tough it is for them especially in a setting such as OU, but it doesnt seem to make much sense to me. Most white people here, not all of course, have very little, if any, prejudices against blacks. Of course this is a Christian redneck town so there are definitely some out there, but a lot of people come from bigger type cities like Columbus, Cleveland, Cincinnati, and Pittsburgh. They've grown up with, gone to school with, lived with people of all races and backgrounds, definitely a lot more than I have. And I dont want to say that these places are void of racism though. Amy's told me lots of stories of when she and Nate dated and how many looks they would get even if they just went out to dinner somewhere. I can understand blacks' suspicion. They have to face prejudice sometimes on a daily basis. But it seems to me that when everybody meets someone new, no one is quite sure what to expect that person. Will he be a dick? Will she be a bitch? Will they be prejudice? But once you get to know them, it's usually pretty clear what kind of a person they are. I think its best to give every person the benefit of the doubt rather than automatically place them into a group, and if later they end up showing you that they suck as a person, then you can bitch them out all you want, slap them if they deserve it. But until then, you shouldnt look down on a person just because of the color of their skin, no matter if its white or black. Oh boy, now this sounds all preachy. I'm not really trying to be, but it makes sense, doesnt it? If I met a black guy that was a bad person, I'm not going to think that the next black guy I meet is going to be bad too. It's just so dumb. The human mind stores things in groups and this is the source of the problem.  These groupings just manifest themselves into atrocious things and are passed down from generation to generation.  It sucks.  Blah.  Ok thats all I can rant about today.  I'm terribly sorry if I've offended anyone, I didnt mean to.  I just want to get my thoughts out there, so at least people can see where I stand and that I recognize I have a lot of growing to do.  Well I'm off to do some homework, bye ya'll!